Realization in Life

I have come to realize that the 2 floods Lynn and I experienced one year apart from one another is still affecting me. Labor Day this year was the 3 year anniversary of the first flood. Just like any disaster, natural or otherwise, it is hard for those outside of the event to fathom the long reaching impacts. Post traumatic stress is real - I know.

I think back to that day 3 years ago and even though a lot has occurred since then, my life kind of stopped. It is hard for me to describe what I mean, but it really sums up to the PTS. Before the first flood, I was very involved in my community and church, and that day - it all stopped.

It is hard to write about, but I think it is important to get it out there for healing reasons. It has taken me 3 yrs to do so, but I feel it is time. Moving on is hard, and it really has been slow deliberate baby steps for me. I want those steps to change to strides. So, I am forcing myself to read more on topics that I think will help. And, the next step is involvement. I think it does not help I work from home. Once I get nested in my office for the day, it is hard to leave. That step needs to be taken. I miss volunteering - I miss meeting new people.

Steps into strides...